Firstly I wanna apologize for being absent from blogging for quite some time already. I’ve been busy hearing and learning from God. He’s been telling me so many things and oh boy, it’s so overwhelming (seriously!) This year is indeed a special year, my friend!
Anyway, he’s been nudging me for three times already to write again. I clearly didn’t put this as top priority as I didn’t know how important this is for Him for me to write and not only shared what I’ve got orally to my community.
So, I’ll try to catch up on things I learned and discovered this past few months (in the next posts). But this time, I’ll just try to write through my phone as soon as I get something and leave the perfectionist side of me (I guess no more pictures or designs unless I have time for that lol).
Anyway, so here I am, writing this post partly in a spa room because of the overwhelming presence of God and a new revelation I got here.
Today, I had a casual conversation with my mom and hubby as we’re visiting my hometown for a Chinese New Year gathering. We shopped today and had a coffee time in a cafe nearby the shopping centre. We began to chat about many things (it’s a small talk) and suddenly my mom told me about the history of Christianity in my family.
For the first time in my life, I knew that my grandmother and her siblings were faithful Christians who served the Lord in a local Christian church long, long time ago. As usual, I responded with a ‘poker face’ as I slowly began to consume the information to my brain and responded accordingly.
Then it struck me again in a small spa room when a masseuse was giving me a massage (Yes, He can talk anytime even in the weirdest possible place and time lol). I remembered how I wrote my history of faith on my IAOGI Canada application end of November. I questioned why God chose me so many times but I decided to settle with gratefulness. I never knew why I weirdly always pursue God all my life (even when I was still living in sins). And….yeah, it’s pretty easy for me to believe God, I guess….like it’s already in me. I’m simply a believer from the very beginning.
I know for some of you this new discovery I found might be simple. But for me who always been lonely in my faith to God (in my family), it is really SOMETHING! It reminds me of this verses:
“Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life. And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.”
I can imagine that I am who I am right now probably because of my ancestor who prayed for his/her descendants. It somehow gives me hopes that however our situations right now, He will deliver His promises, either this time or next time, either to this generation or to the next one. If, and only if, we’re faithful and obedient to His calling in our lives.
Knowing this, my heart is so full!